I am overwhelmed!

"In my anguish I cried to the Lord and He answered by setting me free" ~ Psalm 118:5. I have been lavished! Some of you know what my life looked like a year ago. I have written about the lies I was living out of and the prayer I would cry out to the Lord in desperation, "God, don't give up on me... God, RESCUE ME!!!" My heart would scream these pleas out to my God who felt so distant. I was in a sin that was destroying me, and I could not break free. I have written some of the story in earlier posts... the punch-ling being that, without a bit of help from me, my Warrior King rescued me! His Spirit brought my heart to a place of brokenness and contrition and met me in my despair. He invaded the enemy's camp and claimed me back for Himself... but He did so much more than rescue me. He swept me away to Africa and loved me back to life. He romanced me with beauty and attention and intimacy. He pierced my muddy heart with His own sweet voice and dispelled the lies with His crazy-wonderful truth. He restored me and loved me and led me by the hand to Tacoma where He has continued this sweet love story. My Lord and Love has set me free! He has established my worth and identity in His own eyes, so that I need not look to anyone or anything else to fulfill me. He continually speaks in my ear, "I am enough." And He is! This is still a journey and a fight. I am still in the process of relinquishing control and trusting Jesus with my whole heart and present and future. I am still handing over to Him the past that I have held so tightly to my chest... but my sore fingers are relaxing their grip as He lifts my eyes to meet His gaze and I can't help but trust Him. This is a fight, but the King who has vanquished every enemy that would seek to destroy me and keep me from Him calls me His beloved. A glance of my eyes melts His heart... and I stand overwhelmed with the awe and honor of it. I praise the Lord from the depths of my soul... I cried out to Him in my anguish... I asked Him just to rescue me... HE ANSWERED BY SETTING ME FREE!!! And He hasn't stopped.. He continues to heap blessing upon blessing upon me... how can I stand under the weight of this joy! He has led me to some decisions about this upcoming year... I will keep you in suspense until I have some details worked out, but just know that He continues to be so faithful. I am excited and confident as I move into the next few months and have made some big decisions with relative ease and peace. More to come soon... so much to say about what the Lord has been teaching me here. :)